Monday, March 29, 2010

Look Up

When one has a horrendously, terrible, no good can come of this, strangely bad for me, truly, awful day, complete, without pleasure, or not even feeling good, once. A day like this, what can one do? Well I will tell you what I was made to do on two very unconnected days, one bad, one good.

It is a sad indictment on my part, when I have to wait to be made to do, what I should be doing on a daily basis, when things start turning out  all wrong, and you can't figure out how you got, where you are, or things are truly wonderful and exciting, and you still can't figure out what you did to deserve, all of this 'good stuff.'

First I guess I have to explain what these two days were, that brought me to the above conclusion. I was subbing when a High School'er, came out of the classroom and tackled me as I was walking to the bathroom, hit my arm and body and knocked me flat on my back. Pain knew no bounds. I was speechless, Pain washed over my body and wracked me all over, but it felt like my arm was knocked into my arm socket. It had displaced ligaments that I didn't even know I had.

The lady Nun standing over me was telling me to get up, now I would have loved to, but there was no earthly way I could. All I could do was lie there. I was conscious but barely, for no one seemed to be making any sense to me, at all.

I just kept looking up. That was all I could do, was keep looking up. Now, I saw nothing in particular, just the ceiling, but my attitude was one of  'keep looking up,' no matter what else happens, 'keep looking up.'

They kept saying get up, get up, and eventually, slowly, I was able to raise myself and get up to my feet. But I lay there a long time, trying to figure out what happened and why it happened and will I ever be able to move again. But I was no better able to make sense of a senseless situation, than a man in the moon. It did not make sense, he hit me way to hard, to make sense of an incident like this.

But my husband was called and came into town from Many Farms and took me to the Hospital. They x-ray'ed me and said, my Humerus was cracked but not broken. But the ligaments would take a long time to heal. They put my arm in a sling and sent me home with pain pills. And believe me, I ate them like candy. When one has a horrendously, terrible, no good can come of this, strangely bad for me, truly, awful day, complete, without pleasure, or not even feeling good, once.

As I think about this day, one never forgets the uselessness of a situation such as this. It was senseless to me, and no way was it enlightening or understandable. No one, could get the slightest enjoyment out of doing this dastardly deed, for any reason, I figured, if so they were truly warped. It almost killed me, my heart pained me exceedingly great, for a long while. Even today I still have residues of pain, from ligaments, twisted to go in places, they should not go. Even today, I still feel hurt occasionally, over this.

I tell you all of this, to show  you, there are moments in our lives when we cannot understand, WHY(especially concerning bad events), no matter how we try, unless something changes to bring it about years later.

The most obvious point, learned for me, was the one of  'LOOKING UP.' At that point in my life I did not desire to look up, I desired anything, but an attitude that was a 'POSITIVE ONE.' No where or no how, can anyone say, this was a positive experience, yet here I was, looking up and onward. My dear people that is because, there is nothing left to do, but to look up from a supine position and forward.

Forward to the day, there is understanding, even if I have to go, to the  Temple to find it, like David did, who said, "I was envious of the sinner until I went into the Temple, and saw their end." Not a direct quote, but you get the jest of it all.

Now on to another day such as this one, only totally different feelings attached to it. It was a rather pleasant day, truly enjoyable to all, it was awesome, a day of good, and happiness and joy and wonderment, a day complete in Love. I was with my son, Ruben and his wife Michelle. We had gone up to spend New Years Eve with them in Terrell, Texas. That night, we all went out to the drive way across the street to set off fire crackers at Midnight. It was a rather pleasant day, truly enjoyable to all, it was awesome, a day of good, and happiness and joy and wonderment, a day complete in Love.

I LOOK UP  at the firecrackers going off, and WOW, THEY WERE AMAZING. As I look up, my eyes are looking at the sky and my eyes, are following, a firecracker, trying to see far enough back, to watch it explode and I start backing up in order to see it, and I found myself leaning over backwards, more and more until, I find myself falling backwards, farther and farther and Wamm, falling right into a ditch.

Now I had a puffy coat on, so I will say, my fall on the ground was buffeted somewhat but hard anyway, so I just kinda felt me hit the ditch, without too much damage to my back, but my hand was out reaching for something to stop my fall, and it found it all right. I hit the top of the drainage ditch pipe which had a jagged edge and whammed it bad, cutting my finger. Now it turned rather serious really fast. All of a sudden it was hurting. So Michelle took me into the house and bandaged me up, it was not stitch-able material so I got off pretty lucky.

But back to the ditch, I was supine upon my back again, looking up at the Stars. I thought this is a weird way to start the New Years. Flat on my Back.
Then I remembered thinking, my attitude had changed from 'no way could this be happening to me,' to 'WHY NOT ME. WHO BETTER TO REALIZE, WHEN ONE IS FLAT ON ONE'S BACK, THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO DO, BUT LOOK UP AND FORWARD.

And that my people is what I did. I HAD BEEN WORRYING ABOUT WHERE & HOW & WHEN & WHO, do we move back so as to be closer to everybody or not. Or do we just stick it out and let life happen. But at least, now I was approaching it from a POSITIVE POSITION. I realized it is a great way to start the NEW YEARS. As David says, "I LIFT UP MY EYES TO THE HILLS---WHERE DOES MY HELP COME FROM? MY HELP COMES FROM THE LORD, THE MAKER OF HEAVEN AND EARTH.",(Psalm 121:1-2)WHEN YOUR LOOKING FOR HELP FROM THE HILLS, YOU DEFINITELY GOTTA BE LOOKING UP.

So it's all a matter of attitude. Pain or Agony or a Terrible Cross to Bear, or Joy, and Pleasure and Fun Times Galore, and Love immense. IT'S ALL A MATTER OF YOUR ATTITUDE.  Sometimes we got to be put on our backs to look up.
Better yet! Look up without it. Leave the supine position for sex.
Love Nina 
Later more later

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Love

And they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus.- Act_4:13
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There are some people, I have been around, that lend themselves to this verse, very easily. I don’t think, they are ever aware of the profound impact, that they have on me, and those who know them, as well.

I think it is because they have truly been into the Word of God so deeply, that they Seep the Seeds of Jesus, upon everyone they touch. I Love them so much, for they are so easy to Love. Everybody I know Loves, them as well. It is when I grew, from a small child to a more mature Christian, that I began to recognize these people, for what they are. THEY HAD BEEN WITH JESUS. And that made me want to become more like Jesus, as well. This is the type of person that I wish to emanate. It made me truly want to be like Jesus, the One that wrought Joy in my soul, as well as Peace and Strength to carry on.

They created the desire within me to emulate my Savior more completely. Not that I could ever arrive at the Perfect State of Christ, but He did say I could get as close as I desired to be, DRAW NIGH TO HIM, AND HE WOULD DRAW NIGH TO ME, ALSO. Because of this I hope, as I seek the Lord’s Face, that I would somehow, IN MY TRAVELS, begin to recognize, that I HAD BEEN WITH JESUS. That, I myself would become more acquainted with Him, so that I could bubble over with delight, whenever I was around people, who needed to see the Joy of the Lord. I want to be one that brings the COMFORT OF GOD, TO A PEOPLE, WHO ARE IN A CONSTANT STATE OF FEARING HIS WRATH TO COME, in the same manner as he has comforted me.

I want to be the one that points them, TO A FORGIVER OF SINS AND A COMFORTER OF SOULS. This desire to be more like Jesus, brings me to the point of a goal, that is worthy of attempting to reach for. Because of this, I try to read my Bible more, so that I am assured that I know what God says, about all circumstances that I will be faced with, or that others will be faced with. Because of this, I give advice on what God would have us do, to have a beautiful life filled with Love.

Because of this desire, to be more like Jesus, I want to spend more time in prayer, to a Loving Father, and get to know the advocate for my case, Jesus Christ. I do believe if we pray more, we will become attuned to his place, in the Holy of Holies and what He does for each of us within, AND THE PART THE HOLY SPIRIT PLAYS, IN ALL THIS GRAND SCHEMA OF THINGS.

I believe as we DRAW NIGH TO GOD, we will get MORE LOVING. For God is Love and so is His Son Jesus, and so is His Holy Spirit, ALL ARE LOVE, AS WELL. I need to do all things in Love. For if I do anything without it, it will not survive the fires of cleansing, that will come upon all of our works. I want to examine my motives, and work out my own Salvation, with fear and trembling.

I do not want, to stop being me, just because of a few people who do not like me. I do appreciate honest input of ideas, that I can mull around in my soul. But not to the point of being so interested in others viewpoints of me, aimed at making me less than, ‘who I am.’ Albeit I would like a good report from them all, but that is not my primary goal. But alas that good report of me, all the time, more than likely, is not possible, and be truthful at the same time.

But I am interested in God, giving me, a good, report in my soul, EVERY TIME I APPROACH HIM. AND FOLKS THAT IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT! YOUR SELF IMAGE WROUGHT BY THE GOD OF THIS UNIVERSE, WHO CREATED MANKIND IN HIS OWN IMAGE. HE MAKES SUCCESSES!!!
I CANNOT IMAGINE A GOD WHO MADE ME IN HIS OWN IMAGE, WANTING ME TO BE ‘ASHAMED OF MYSELF’, FOR MY INADEQUACIES. HE WANTS TO HELP ME, NOT HINDER ME.
THOSE PEOPLE WHO ADVOCATE, SELF IMAGE IS NOT IMPORTANT, ARE A BIG BUNCH OF BALONEY. HUMBLE YOURSELF THEY SAY.

WELL, I AM A HUMBLE PERSON, WHO KNOWS WHO I AM, what I can do, AND WHO GOD IS. what He can do. THAT IS HUMILITY TO ME.

THEY BELIEVE SELF HELP BOOKS AND CHRISTIANITY DO NOT GO HAND IN HAND. WELL, I BELIEVE THEY DO. WHO WANTS TO FOLLOW A MAN OR WOMAN, WHO DON’T BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES OR WHO DON’T WANT TO LEARN ^IMPROVE?^

I BELIEVE ANY MAN CAN PICK HIMSELF UP, DUST HIMSELF OFF, AND SAY, ‘LETS TRY THIS AGAIN.’ ‘I AIN’T GONNA QUIT!!! ‘LET’S SEE WHAT I CAN DO TO HELP MYSELF & OTHERS.’ I BELIEVE, ‘I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH JESUS WHO STRENGTHENS ME.’ IF YOU DON’T TAKE THE FIRST STEP TOWARD GOD, HE AIN’T GONNA TAKE THAT FIRST STEP TOWARD YOU. YOUR PART IN SALVATION IS BELIEVING(FAITH).

AND THIS WILL BE THE SIGNATURE, THAT I HAVE INDEED BEEN WITH JESUS, MY NAME, SANDRA AKA NINA, WHEN PEOPLE SAY IT, WILL THEY THINK OF LOVE. LIFE IS TOO SHORT AND I AM TOO OLD, NOT TO SIGN MY SIGNATURE=LOVE NINA

THERE IS NOT A CHILD, MATE(THEIR PARENT), GRAND CHILD OR RELATIVE, THAT I HAVE, THAT I DO NOT THINK OF ‘LOVE’ WHEN I THINK OF THEM. ALL OF THEM ARE ‘LOVE TO ME!’ AND ALL THEIR FRIENDS ARE ‘LOVE TO ME' ALSO.

AND BETTER THAN EVEN THAT, THERE IS NOT A FRIEND OR AN ACQUAINTANCE THAT I KNOW, THAT I DO NOT THINK OF ‘LOVE’, WHEN I AM AROUND THEM. AIN’T THAT JUST THE GRANDEST THING GOING?


If anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.- Phil 4:8


THEY HAVE ALL BEEN WITH JESUS.


IT DON'T GET NO BETTER THAN LOVE!

Love Nina 
Later more later

Friday, March 26, 2010

1 Foot of Snow-Great Pictures Ruben


Buddy Lee contemplating the snow
Buddy Lee, Sweet Pea watching Precious go down the steps and be brave




Back Tree


Back Deck    
Back Yard
FirePit

Strange Weather for Texas. Dallas got a foot of Snow also. Just thought would verify the Weather Happenings, that are going on in Texas.  Course, they had SnowMaggedon, in Washington DC, a Wet Winter, in the Arizona Desert, Mudslides in California, Earthquakes, in Haiti, Chile, China and a varied display of Earth Shakes, from here to yonder, and notably one due SOON, in NAC. They are having Volcanoes in Iceland and Japan. I just can't wait to see, what Spring Yells and Summer decides, is on the front burner. Last year it was all Droughty, in Dallas, San Antonio, Houstin  and Austin, but oh yes, I prayed for RAIN FOR TEXAS, cause I have kids, there, and a small child asked me too. So thanks to the Lord's Intervention Dallas left the Drought behind. Then the rains started coming, and I think Texas might be hollowing, 'NOW, there's too much rain, we're all flooding here.' Somehow you got to accept what your given, until change comes. Now isn't that a novel idea. 
Or go ahead, Pray! 
Prayer Changes Things! Like nothing else in the Universe does. 
EVEN THE WEATHER, QUAKES AND VOLCANOES.  
I really don't want a Quake in California. Because my kids travel there.
I just prefer it strike somewhere else, if it has to hit the NAC! Maybe an isolated area.
But that, folks, is just me. Maybe you Pray for something different.
But REMEMBER FOLKS, THE RAINS DID COME IN TEXAS!   
MUSTA BEEN THE LORD! PTL 

From the closet to a reward system!


Someone asked me yesterday, do you think all this stuff means, 'the end of the world.' I said, Nah, THE LORD'S GONNA REIGN 1000 YEARS FIRST. How's He gonna reign in a destroyed World.

I say, "Nah, it is the Lord, been the Lord since the, INCEPTION OF TIME."
He's just trying to get our attention. PTL.
REMIND US, HE'S COMING BACK SOME DAY!!!

WHEN GOD DECIDES, NOT WHEN 'WE DECIDE.'
THERE AIN'T NO LEADER BIG ENOUGH TO CALL THE SHOT, THERE AIN'T NO PEON SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW WHEN........

Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." (Psalm 46:10).

 
Love Nina 
more later

Family Reunion

3/26/10
I guess you’ve probably already heard every fat joke there is to hear. Especially if your fat and are paranoiac enough to believe that everyone of them are pointed directly at you. HAVE FAITH. This is for fat people anywhere and especially for me. I am truly paranoiac so yes, I know they are all throwing their darts straight at my plump little dart board.

Well, well, well, here we go again. Trying to reach a goal of  20 lbs off before Reunion Time. Of course, everybody understands when it is time to go to the Reunion of a Family, just how cruel Family can be about the ‘changes’ that are taking place over time. Loss of looks, loss of hair, loss of ‘you name it, you probably got it,’

If one has put on 20 lbs it begins to show, no more lose fitting clothes, everything seems to be TOO tight fitting, AND WE ARE DESPERATELY IN NEED OF ANOTHER SOLUTION THAN JUST WALKING AROUND NUDE CAUSE CLOTHES ARE JUST TOO UNCOMFORTABLE.

And if one is lucky enough to be able to afford a whole new wardrobe, we buy clothes that fit us, but show our rolls of fat, which we grow to hate. We hate the way we look, hate the way others look, just pretty much hate everything in general. But if we try to hide the fat under lose fitting clothes, then HOW AWESOME, WE LOOK, JUST LIKE A TENT OR MOO MOO GOT LOOSE AND PLANTED ITSELF UPON OUR FRAMES.

Now how you gonna meet people after you’ve gained weight. It is quite odd that we have to be subjected to the usual, “your getting fat, fatter and fattest, ain’t you.” But there is no where else, that it is so obvious as the place, where we only see someone ‘once a year.’ Oh my, what a trip, one I would rather not take under any circumstances.

For at least the people we see all the time, got time to become ‘acclimatized’ to the ‘NEWEST VISITORS OF THE FAT DEPARTMENT’, AND ABOUT ALL THEY DO, IS WAG THEIR HEADS AT SUCH, SLOVENLY PEOPLE, THAT HAPPEN TO WANT SPACE, ON THIS HERE EARTH TOO.

Like man, that is reason enough to go on a diet, when we are faced with having to buy two tickets on a plane so that we don’t overload the engine and cause the plane to go down because we can’t stop putting food in our mouths. Besides that two tickets are quite costly, anyway. We’d rather stand around and hollow to everybody we know, ‘I AIN’T REALLY THAT FAT, SILLY!’

People, there is only one way to lose weight, that is, “EAT LESS THAN WE MOVE, & CHANGE WHAT YOU EAT.” Now I am going to say here, I have tried to lose the same 20 lbs for over a year now. I was a tub of lard at the last years reunion. But I hid it well with lose clothes, vests, and bright colors. They can’t get through the colors to find you, it confuses their black and white brain cells. I was just ‘fooling me,’ I’d lose then eat, lose then eat, lose then eat. You get the picture. NOTE EVEN CLOSE TO SERIOUS. I LOVED EATING MORE THAN CHANGE>>>>!!!??

But here I am, two months away from REUNION TIME, MAY 30, 2010, and I have finally gotten SERIOUS ABOUT MY WEIGHT LOSS, AND I INTENDED TO CHANGE IT, SO I HAVE LOSS 3 LB IN ONE WEEK. A TOTAL OF 7 LB SINCE I STARTED THIS WEIGHT LOSS PROGRAM 6 WEEKS AGO. THIS HAS BEEN HARDER FOR ME THAN CLIMBING ANY MOUNTAIN, ANY MAN OR WOMAN CAN CLIMB, TO ANY HEIGHT THEY WANT TOO. THEY GET ACCOLADES ALL THE TIME. EVEN GET MENTIONED IN HISTORY BOOKS.....

WHEN PEOPLE LOSE WEIGHT, DON’T THEY DESERVE AN HONORABLE MENTION IN THE HISTORY BOOKS? I SAY AGAIN, “WHEN PEOPLE LOSE WEIGHT THEY DESERVE AN HONORABLE MENTION IN THE HISTORY BOOKS TOO!!!”

MAN, WHAT ABOUT ME? 20LBS OFF OUGHT TO BE WORTH AN HONORABLE MENTION, SOMEWHERE, BUT WE ALL KNOW, ALAS, THIS IS NOT THE CASE. WE NEED TO BUY OUR OWN BLUE RIBBON AND HANG IT ON OUR OWN WALL, AND SHOW EVERYBODY WHO ENTERS THE DOMAIN OF OUR DOORS. SEE WHAT I DID!!!!!

I LOST 3 LBS THIS WEEK. PAT ME ON THE BACK, BRAG ABOUT ME, WHATEVER. BUT JUST DON’T REWARD ME, BY TAKING ME TO THE ICE CREAM PARLOR AND BUYING ME A ‘HOT FUDGE SUNDAY.’ CAUSE THAT’S LIKE BUYING AN ALCHOHOLIC, A BOTTLE OF SCOTCH. And from the looks of my History, I have already been rewarding myself in that very manner..

JUST SAY, “GOOD JOB, NINA, YOU GONNA LOOK REAL GOOD IN TWO MONTHS.” JUST 13 MORE LBS TO GO.

WON’T MY FAMILY BE SO PROUD OF ME???

AND IF YOU SAY, YEA BUT, YOU ONLY GOT 20 LBS TO LOSE, WHAT ABOUT ME? I GOT >>>>>>>>>this many lbs to lose, don’t you understand?

Well, I do understand, it went on slow and it’s coming off slow. But since I am world class on giving advise, I won’t change that aspect of my personality.

THIS IS ALL I GOT TO SAY TO YOU! DIVIDE 20 INTO WHATEVER WEIGHT YOU NEED TO LOSE, TAKE THAT NUMBER, WHICH SHOULD BE, REAL SMALL, AND PLAY AROUND WITH IT. Look at it, hang it on your wall, wash that Elephant one bit at a time.  A BIT, LOOKS REAL GOOD COMPARED TO THE TOTAL.

As my Greek teacher(Internet) tells me, how do you wash an Elephant, one bit at a time. How do you learn Greek? One bit at a time. AND THE FIRST STEP IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST!!!I am well into my 3rd year learning Greek and Hebrew and Spanish!!!YES, IT CAN BE DONE CAUSE I AM DOING IT. BUT I HAD TO TAKE THAT FIRST STEP TIMES 3.

SEE YA AT THE FAMILY REUNION!!!

Love Nina 
Later more later

Thursday, March 25, 2010

I Know My Redeemer Lives

I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand upon the earth. (Job 19:25)
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When I have made a fool of myself, I sometimes wonder why God would even consider me to be one of his Redeemed Children, I know in my Heart of Hearts, that He does. He considers me Redeemed from the Curse and this can never be taken away, by any unto-froward actions on my part. I am not keeping me, that would be Religion, I am being Kept, that would be Christianity. No one or thing can pluck me out of His Gracious Hands, for it is all by Grace that I am being saved, not of works, lest any man should boast.
We had driven to the Dermatologist Dr, in N.M. to have precancerous lesions frozen off of Don’s Nose, Ear, and Brow with Liquid Nitrogen. We did some other shopping at Jo Ann's Fabrics and Safeway and then decided at the last minute to go to the Brewery. Now I am paying the consequences of my actions by drinking to much, I am slightly 'touched' for I threw up.

Now it is humbling to throw up. And that my people, I am here to tell you, I am so thankful, that it was so good for me and SO HUMBLING. I cannot imagine having to carry the emotional weight of condemnation around for the rest of my life about others predicaments. I cannot imagine having to ‘carry’ 3 beers inside of me all the way home in that 2 ½ hour drive. The nausea was so relieved when I got it out of my body. I could take the throwing up, that felt really good, the nausea I am so happy that it quit. Needless to say, the acid was horrendous and I have only been able to eat oatmeal and tea and a little coffee this morning. BUT I REALIZED INSTANTLY WHAT A PRIG I HAVE BEEN WITH MY CONDEMNATIONS.

Why did I do this? I am a Christian, who loves the Lord, my God, with all my heart, my soul and my mind. Seems a little bit Oxymorronish, to find someone of my Stature WHO LOVES TO TEACH, AND GIVE ADVICE, NO BODY WANTS, in a  position like this. But really it was not difficult at all. We went to get a beer  before we headed home. Don wanted to sit outside, I told him I thought it was too cold, but as it turned out sitting in the Sunshine actually made me hot, so I started peeling off jackets. Now for someone who does not know me, that is a feat as big as slaying the Giant. One Beer turned into two Beers, by then I was really dancing around, outside. No one was out there, and we sat out in the sun to get some Vitamin D, which I never get, because I am so sedentary, inside writing all the time.

It has been a horrendously long Winter, and here I am faced with Sunshine and music and I was really enjoying myself and actually feeling amorous toward my husband also which is a feat I really like. I love music too. ALL WAS WELL WITH THE WORLD. AND I WAS DOING NO WRONG SONG. So while he talked on the phone to various people I enjoyed myself. I did talk to my Baby Son about visiting Dallas.
Then, I stood up and danced and swayed to the beat of the music and drank # 3 Beer. It tasted so good. I have drank 5 glasses of wine before and only got high a bit. What is 3 beers? Well, I am here to tell you. When you go so high(WITH BEER, MUSIC, SEX, AND SUNSHINE,) you got to come down. My husband hinted that some people inside had come out to ‘watch me’ enjoy myself. SOOO WHAT? AN AUDIENCE DON’T SCARE ME, NOT THE WAY I WAS FEELING. My husband got us a glass of water for # 4 and I am still swaying to the wind, and talking to God. Yes, I could walk out under my own recognizance. We went to the BRAND NEW FLEX.
Now you probably say, God was no where near me, when I was in this state of euphoria. But I disagree heartedly. He was WATCHING ME, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. AND DIRECTING MY FEET, RIGHT TO THE SIDE OF THE ROAD AS WE PULLED OFF, TO LET ME THROW UP. YES, MY PEOPLE HE WAS RIGHT THERE HELPING ME, GET DOWN FROM THAT HIGH, THAT I COULD NOT CONTROL. HE KNEW IF I THREW UP, I’D ACTUALLY FEEL BETTER. AND I DID. ALBEIT I BAPTIZED THE FLEX.
Now my husband, was perfectly ok. Why I wondered. I think it had something to do with the pain medicine that I had taken that morning for my neck pain. Pain Meds and Beer don’t mix. So I was literally one sick puppy. But GOD HAD MY HUSBAND HELP ME FOR HE WAS DOING OK.
Now, I have also been trying to lose weight. When I got up this morning I  found that I had lost all of 0.8 of a lb. WHICH WAS FANTASTIC. I threw up all that Mexican Food, I had stuffed into my mouth at lunch yesterday. And boy was I guilty of gluttony for I love Mexican Food. I figured out, I had gained 5 lbs over that meal, for sure.
BUT NO ONE IS GOING TO HONE IN ON MY SIN OF GLUTTONY. ONLY ON MY DRINKING TOO MANY BEERS AT THE BREWERY AND THROWING UP. NOW WHY IS THAT? BECAUSE WE WANT TO CALL THE SHOTS AND SAY, THIS SIN AIN’T THAT BAD AND THIS SIN AIN’T THAT GOOD.

BUT PEOPLE, SIN IS SIN. AND WE ARE ALL GUILTY OF IT. THE PROBLEM ARISES IN THINKING WE DON’T DESERVE TO BE REDEEMED BY JESUS. AND I KNOW MY REDEEMER LIVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, I don’t care how much you drink or eat or sin, you do deserve to be redeemed. And that in the end He will stand upon the earth., for you and you and you and me. But you can't be proud about it.
THAT’S THE ONE PROBLEM I GOT WITH people who don't drink. THOSE PEOPLE THINK ‘HOW GOOD THEY ARE’ FOR NOT DRINKING EVEN ONE DROP. WELL WHAT ABOUT ALL THE REST OF THE SINS THEY COMMIT DAILY. BEING A MEMBER OF, (A NO DRINKING CLUB,) DON’T MAKE THEM SINLESS, IT ONLY MAKES THEM DRINKLESS. 

Yes, I do think they are a really great bunch of people. Troubled but great, none the less.

AND THE DRINKING RESPONSIBLY, AIN’T GONNA CAUSE THEM PROBLEMS. THE ‘PROUDNESS’ WILL(THAT’S RELIGION).  THE ‘PROUDNESS’ IS CLOSE TO A FALL. THEY ARE ONLY ONE ‘PROUD’ AWAY FROM A FALL, NOT ONE DRINK AWAY FROM A FALL. WHO THEY TRYING TO KID ANYWAY?

Course I do understand being a Drunk certainly disqualifies you for being on the up and up with God. He would prefer you be Drunk in the Spirit!
May the Lord bless you and guard over you. May the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May the Lord lift up His Countenance upon you and give you peace.

If you do drink, be responsible about it. Best state of being, a teetotaler, with the Nazerine Vow!(3) If a person chooses to withdraw from the material world and consecrate himself exclusively to the service of the Almighty by becoming a Nazir (vowing not to drink wine or eat grape products, come in contact with dead bodies or cut his hair), he must come to the Cohen at the completion of the vow.  Like Sampson! Never had it, don't want it.
Love Nina

From my studies from Rabbi Kalman Packouz
See this article online:
http://www.aish.com/tp/ss/ssw/80532567.html

Torah Portion of the Week

Naso
This week's portion includes further job instructions to the Levites, Moshe is instructed to purify the camp in preparation for the dedication of the Mishkan, the Portable Sanctuary.
Then four laws relating to the Cohanim are given: (1) Restitution for stolen property where the owner is deceased and has no next of kin - goes to the Cohanim. (2) If a man suspects his wife of being unfaithful, he brings her to the Cohanim for the Sotah clarification ceremony . (3) If a person chooses to withdraw from the material world and consecrate himself exclusively to the service of the Almighty by becoming a Nazir (vowing not to drink wine or eat grape products, come in contact with dead bodies or cut his hair), he must come to the Cohen at the completion of the vow. 4) The Cohanim were instructed to bless the people with this blessing: "May the Lord bless you and guard over you. May the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May the Lord lift up His Countenance upon you and give you peace."
The Mishkan is erected and dedicated on the first of Nissan in the second year after the Exodus. The leaders of each tribe jointly give wagons and oxen to transport the Mishkan. During each of the twelve days of dedication, successively each tribal prince gives gifts of gold and silver vessels, sacrificial animals and meal offerings. Every prince gives exactly the same gifts as every other prince.


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Dvar Torah
based on Growth Through Torah by Rabbi Zelig Pliskin
The Torah states:
"And afterwards the Nazir may drink wine" (Numbers 6:20).
After the Nazir completed the entire process described by the Torah, he may drink wine once again. Why does the Torah still call the person a Nazir in this verse since he is no longer in the state of being a Nazir? The Alshich explains that when a person goes through a period of thirty days of being a Nazir, he elevates himself to a high level of spirituality. He is now on such a level that even if he drinks wine it is the drinking of a person on the spiritual level of a Nazir.
Two people can drink wine and the meaning behind their behavior can be totally different. The following two incidents illustrate this clearly:
Rabbi Mordechai Gifter, former Rosh Hayeshiva of Telz, was on an airplane. One of the engines caught on fire and the captain announced an emergency landing in a nearby city. One passenger called out to the flight attendant, "Give me one last drink before I die!" A person who identifies himself entirely with his body and not with his soul keeps this attitude even at the very last minute of his life. (The plane landed safely and no one died.)
Second story: A very righteous Torah scholar lived an ascetic life and denied himself many of life's pleasures. When he was on his deathbed he asked, "Please bring me a glass of wine before I die. My entire life I denied my body physical pleasures. Now I want to ask my body forgiveness and I wish to appease it with a glass of wine." The righteous man identified himself entirely with his soul. His request for a final drink of wine was with the spirituality of a Nazir.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

This is my first blog... I am technically incompetent



This is my first blog. So this is going to be rather strange to you and to me. I love to write, so I should not have any trouble filling a page or two, on this blog. The themes about which, I write may be unusual at first until I get a handle on just how this works. I love working on web pages, and have many pages I have done on geocities. But the trouble with that is, I can give you a strange address for my pages Reocities, as Yahoo has done a takeover and gave me a new address, so they say, geocities no longer exists as a viable option. I surely do not know how or why I would try to save my pages, which is how I found this Blog, by seeking another outlet for my Web Pages, and trying to keep them going, as a cultural option, since I have worked on them for years, and enjoyed every minute of it. I have uploaded my songs on it, written on it, and just plain ole given advise that has not been sought after by anyone, but I do it anyway. That after all if what a 'writer' does.
No I have not sold anything, but I have written 3 books, that are 'WOW' to me, BUT I CAN NOT SAY THAT IS THE CASE IN THOSE TO WHOM I HAVE LOANED THE BOOK. THEY USUALLY JUST SAY, 'INCITEFUL'. I AM NOT SURE IF THAT MEANS MY BOOKS ARE 'INSIGHTFUL' OR THAT THEY TEND TO INCITE PEOPLE TO ACTION. BUT WHY READ A BOOK, THAT DOES NOT DO BOTH. People ought to be affected by what they read. In other words, my writing should have an effect on you in some manner, so to speak, even if it is, such a simple thing as a 'BRAND NEW BLOG' EFFECT! But everybody's got to 'start somewhere.'
THIS IS MY 'SOMEWHERE.' AND I THANK GOOGLE AHEAD OF THE GAME FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO WRITE THIS BLOG. MUCHO GRACIAS

I heard somewhere, do not know where, 'that every book, has at least one good thing about it.' It is really quite simple, I say, read my book and find that 'one good thing.' Yes, I do have it in a Word file. I have also signed up for a small business page by Yahoo. So if I can figure out how to use the thing, I will let you know and you can go there and buy my books. Yes, I have others. I am now in the process of writing 7 new ones, I will cover them at a later date. Like I said, after I get Yahoo, to working right, which I might add, I did address that tiny problem. So if you find any of my Blogs worthy of your consideration, feel free to browse for my books when I get it out of the 'UNDERCONSTRUCTION PHASE! I am better than 1/2 price book store, for sure. THEY SAY, WHAT? WHO DOES? I don't know who, BUT THEY SAY, A WRITER IS NOT A WRITER, UNTIL THEY CAN WRITE MORE THAN ONE BOOK. I AGREE! KEEP ON WRITING I SAY, SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE IS BOUND TO READ YOU!!!
If you think you can do better, I say, DO IT.

My husband came home with pictures and a new jacket today. Now that is BLOG WORTHY!!!
See when I started this thing, I had nothing to share. Now, it just so happens that I do. THREE CHEERS FOR THE YEARBOOK STAFF!!!
As an addendum, I would like to share with you, my husband Don's(COMPUTER TEACHER FOR MF)YEARBOOK CLASS, 2010 OF MANY FARMS, HIGH SCHOOL. They just received their new jackets, so I am going to upload the picture of them, onto this BLOG. Don is the one in the front row, in the yellow shirt(the handsome dude-course they are all beautiful and handsome, but I like him an exceptional amount so he comes first.)

Course, it is March 23, 2010 and they are just getting them in, hopefully there will be some more cold weather coming along to warrant their getting to wear them to school when it is 'brrrr cold.'
Love Nina