THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT 2012

Well I guess if I have to write about it, I ain't got it yet. No, the snow fell softly on the grass, the clouds gave an erie appearance of fog, the bitter cold kept me from keeping the front door open for too long, so I looked outside looking for Christmas, but no company came my way, my daughter and grandkids had just left, my husband was working this Sunday getting things done for me, and I was lonely, FEELING DOWN, Christmas weather for sure, but still no Spirit.

I want to see everyone at Christmas time, and THE LORD WILLING I will see them all, I love um all deeply and they love me, but even that seems dull to me sitting here, as I get closer and closer to Christmas. I NEED THE SPIRIT before I go.

I found out on Facebook that my Nephew died, my brother Frank's son. He was in his 50's. HIS NAME WAS JUNIE. Far too young for Cancer to claim him. This rather dulled the Holidays for me, as death has a habit of doing. I am reminded of a time long ago when the kids were small, that my husband's Dad died, HIS NAME WAS BUSTER, and they held his funeral on Christmas Eve. For sure, the Spirit seemed downtodden that day, as in atrociously bad health, he took his own life. Pyschologists say this Holiday has a habit of claiming the discouraged. Depression brought on by Holidays, or the knowledge that something comes upon us that has the power to overcome us like Cancer, is a horrible thought to process. IT STEALS, KILLS AND DESTROYS. And we full well know who is responsible for those attributes. But it is all A VERY LONELY FORM OF GRIEF THAT WE ALL MUST BEAR SOMEDAY BEING HUMAN. EACH ONE HAS TO WALK THAT LONELY VALLEY BY THEMSELVES AND OUR BEING JUDGMENTAL IS NOT AN OPTION WHEN IT COMES TO DEATH. AND WE ALL KNOW DEATH TAKES NO HOLIDAYS

BUT none of those things moved me today, OLD MEMORIES OR NEW DEATHS. As I age, I realize life and death are a natural part of life. Even when they strike at the Holidays, they are muted by the realization that Christ is preached as having defeated death and rose to overcome it, so one can handle this kind of sorrow and tragedy as the Day approaches.CHRIST BRINGS HOPE!

But this does not move me to feel badly at the outcome that I cannot change. No, there are things I would rather not happen at a festive time such as this, but my wants and desires do not exists in other peoples minds. I only hope they realized how much I loved them both. But for the present the feeling alludes me. THIS FEELING CALLED LOVE.

Now that is what I am missing. This feeling of Love. LOVE NEVER FAILS.

I SO WANT EVERYONE, TO REALIZE WHETHER I GET THEM ONE PRESENT OR NOT THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE THEM FOREVER. I SO WANT TO EXPRESS MYSELF SUCH AS TO ALLOW EACH ONE I MEET THE FREEDOM TO SAY, WHO REALLY CARES WHAT YOU FEEL. FOR HOW MANY REALLY DO CARE WHAT SOMEONE FEELS. LIFE IS HARD TO BEAR FOR SOME AND THEY HAVE GOTTEN BITTER AS THEY AGE, BECAUSE I FOR ONE KNOW SOME PEOPLE DO NOT WISH ME GOODWILL, AND WOULD BE RATHER GLAD IF GOD DID NOT BLESS ME SO. THEY TOO HAVE LOST THE ABILITY TO OBTAIN THE REAL MEANING OF CHRISTMAS, LOVE IN ALL IT'S GLORY, FOR SOME ODD REASON OR OTHER.

BUT AS FOR ME, I WISH MY ENEMIES PEACE THIS CHRISTMAS SEASON. I TRULY DO!

THIS FEELING OF LOVE, I SEEM TO BE MISSING THIS YEAR. I KNOW IT IS REAL FOR I HAVE FELT IT MANY TIMES BEFORE EVERY CHRISTMAS AND EASTER THAT THE GOOD LORD HAS GIVEN ME. IT IS SUCH AN OVERWHELMING FEELING THAT ONE CANNOT BUY, NOR CAN ANYONE TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOU.

Well then how does one obtain this SPIRIT OF LOVE?

THE VERSE, FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON THAT WHOSOVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHOULD NOT PERISH, GIVES US THE CLUE.

Now that is a good signal to all that LOVE EXITS HEAVEN AND EXISTS ON EARTH. WE MUST BELIEVE IT, AT ALL TIMES, REGARDLESS OF HOW WE FEEL.

THE FACT THAT GOD HIMSELF WAS WILLING TO GIVE HIS SON TO SAVE US PEOPLE FROM PERISHING. AND HE SENT HIM IN THE FORM OF A BABY. LOVE HIMSELF!

THAT IS CHRISTMAS! PEOPLE WITH A BABY AND CHILDREN, ARE CLOSE TO THIS FEELING.

THIS HOLIDAY WE CELEBRATE THE BIRTH OF THE CHRIST CHILD. BUT BELIEVE ME THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT DOES EXISTS WHETHER WE HAVE IT OR NOT. Depression does not hold a candle to the light this knowledge gives to all who believe.

MAY I WEATHER THIS FEEL-LESS FEELING AND BELIEVE IN MY HEART, WHAT GOD SAYS IS TRUE. GOD IS MORE THAN A MERE FEELING. I KNOW I HAVE GOD IN MY HEART. I KNOW I AM LOVED AS HE IS. I KNOW I LOVE. BUT KNOWING I LOVE AND FEELING I LOVE ARE TWO DIFFERENT ANIMALS ENTIRELY. FOR GOD SAYS HE IS LOVE.

THE HOLY SPIRIT IS FUNKY. ONE CANNOT FEEL HIM WHEN HE APPOACHES, ONE CAN ONLY SEE THE RESULTS OF HIS PRESENCE. BUT HE BRINGS A WONDERFUL FEELING. THEREFORE I KNOW I WILL SOON GET THIS FEELING OF LOVE. AS THE SPIRIT BLOWS LIKE THE WIND, SO THIS FEELING GOD ALLOWS AT THE BIRTH OF HIS CHRIST CHILD WILL SOON COME UPON ME LIKE THE SPIRIT IT REALLY IS.

IT IS NOT FAMILY & FRIENDS. ALBEIT IF WE CAN'T LOVE WHOM WE CAN SEE HOW ARE WE GONNA LOVE GOD WHOM WE CANNOT SEE? PEOPLE BE KIND TO ALL. IT MAY BE THE LORD HIMSELF, AND HE HAS A LOOONNNG MEMORY.

IT IS NOT A CHRISTMAS TREE

IT IS NOT HOT CHOCOLATE

IT IS NOT FESTIVE FOOD.

IT IS NOT SNOW.

IT IS NOT CLOUDY FOGGY WEATHER

IT IS NOT SONG

IT IS NOT PRESENTS

IT IS NOT BOWS

IT IS NOT GARLAND

IT IS NOT BEAUTIFUL DECORATIONS

IT IS NOT DRINK

IT IS NOT TURKEY & HAM & TRIMMINGS
IT IS NOT ANGELS

IT IS NOT LACK

ALBEIT I AM NOT KNOCKING ANY OF THESE, GOD GIVEN LIBERALITIES.

THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT IS GOD HIMSELF. MAY HE SHOW HIMSELF TO YOU IN WAYS ONLY HE CAN, SO YOU TOO CAN OBTAIN THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT.

<LOVE IN ALL IT'S GLORY>

THAT'S WHAT I WANT TO BE THIS CHRISTMAS
A FEELING OF LOVE!

I'M NOT SAYING, YOU AIN'T GOT HIM........

I AM SAYING, DRAW NIGH TO GOD AND HE WILL DRAW NIGH TO YOU.

THAT IS ALL THAT'S NECESSARY TO GET WHAT YOU AIN'T GOT. AND IT AIN'T A BRAND NEW PRESENT.

IT IS THE FEELING OF LOVE!

And it manifests itself in a thousand million myriad ways. EVEN IN WRITINGS.

IT IS THE FEELING OF LOVE!

 SO GIVE THAT THIS CHRISTMAS! IT'S FREE!

YOU DON'T NEED MONEY TO GIVE LOVE. WHO EVER TOLD YOU THAT LIE?“

Albeit I ain't opposed to having money either. Enjoy it! Give if ya got it! JUST DON'T LOVE IT!

later nina
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